I have to admit that this last week I have been feeling the stress of preparing to move to Florida (figuring out how to get my stuff down there as I’ve never moved cross country!), getting good time with my family and being faithful to continue to raise support and trusting the Lord for His provision. I sat down tonight to just meet with the Lord and lay out all the emotions that have been swirling around in my heart this week. Everything from excitement at what’s ahead, sadness of leaving, fatigue from everything that has been packed into this summer, anxiety and and fear of what’s ahead in the midst of the excitement, all the emotions that come with transitioning to a new job location, a new team, and a new apartment to move into. (I hope writing all these things out isn’t making you stressed out too!) Somehow as I wrote all of these things down in my journal, and more, I realized that I had been spending so much time dwelling on the emotions of my circumstances and all I was trusting God to still do, I hadn’t really been thinking of all the Lord had done this summer.
So, I found myself back in Psalm 145, where I’ve been for several weeks. It’s amazing when you read a passage nearly everyday how the Lord sinks new and old truths into your heart even deeper. As I surrendered all these emotions to the Lord I turned to read Psalm 145:5 “On the glorious splendor of your majesty, and on your wonderous works, I will meditate.” I began to list out all of the “wonderous works” I had seen the Lord do this summer, everything from getting to see first hand my little nephew take some of his first steps, to rich and significant conversations with friends, to seeing the Lord provide over $500 in monthly support in a short amount of time. I took up 4 pages of praise of what the Lord had done. It put these next few weeks in perspective, that I can trust Him for even more wonderous works in the coming days and watch Him lead in the things that I’m prone to want to take control of and try to figure out how to do on my own. I want to commit to spending more time meditating on the great things that He has done… so that the “Fame of His abundant goodness would pour forth from me” (Psalm 145:7 interpreted by me)
All that to say, on Wednesday I’m beginning my drive back to Orlando, making some support trips along the way as I trust the Lord to bring in the last $400 in monthly support that I need by the time I get to Orlando and the $3500 in one time for my moving and re-locating costs (my stuff will still in Ohio until I see that come in). Please be praying that the Lord would not only provide the rest of my financial needs this summer but that He would renew my energy spiritually, physically and emotionally in the midst of the “good-byes” and the “welcomes” and the full schedule that’s a head. Pray that I would meet with the Lord consistently and rely on Him in my relationships and in the midst of the life details that need to get done!
